Everything just...STOP!

[saitaina]

GAHHHHHHHHH!

Not only, have I lost four animals in a week, have to deal with Grandpere in the hospital and being violent, Grandmere bugging the fucking hell out of us, money problems, friend problems, surgery issues, but now my Mere is losing her mind with stress and talking about cutting and suicide (if she cuts, she knows I'll go away which will cause her to kill herself which will upset me...)

Can the world just stop for one fucking second so I can take a breath?!

*bangs head on desk* I can handle this, I can handle this, I can hand...

Oh fucking hell! GAAAAAHHHHHH!

I hate stress. And I can't beat up my pillow because it's not fair to the poor Mr. Pillow. I wish I was an alcholic.

Er, Okay I don't but still. I need a punching bag or something because this is driving me insane...and that's not a good place to be considering I'm holding everything and every one together...or trying to at least. Where do the helpers go...to get help?

Comments

[neighsayer.livejournal.com]

They go to other helpers. If you need anything, I'm always around. I know it's weird to ask help from someone you only talk to via LJ, but help is help, right???

Hang in there. And if I were you, I'd see about getting your mom some counseling. Don't let all of this fall on you.

Kate

[saitaina]

Oh Mere has counseling, her counsler's just a prick who doesn't like to see clients.

It's just a down time for the family and since I'm the one who (usually) handles stress the best, and the one who listens, I get to be the leaning post. It's just hard when EVERYTHING is going wrong, as compaired to...one or two things.

Thankfully I have my lj "helpers" and my escapes or I'd go insane.

[sanitiesend.livejournal.com]

dude... i have a friend who's applying for colleges, keeping her grades up in three advanced classes, participating in band and guard, taking up powerlifting, putting together an art portfolio, taking care of her little sister, helping to raise her niece(s), and her mom STILL won't stop bitching at her 24/7 about being unable to find a job. she's 17 and seems to be the only able provider for the family.

people that throw stuff on the backs of unwilling people piss me off to no end. i mean, i step in and take all the weight i can manage and then some just to help those i care about. it pisses me off to see them doing it all on their own.

if you need help of any kind, let me know. i'm here for you. *hugs*