Memoirs of a Nobody

GOD DAMN INBREAD PIECE OF MONKEY BRAINS!

My car battery died...as in, totally, un-jumpable, doa.

GOD DAMNIT!

My parts list (to by) now looks like Franken car:

Battery
Door Hinge
Oil + oil filter
Coolant + Flushing Kit
Radio
Door handle thingies

...I'm starting to hate this car.

I'm not doing well tonight, the grief is consuming me, not only for mum but for my damn car (turns out my roomate did in fact, utterly total it..part of the front is entirely missing, a door won't open and it wouldn't turn over if I paid it), my water keeps trying to get shut off and I just got a 'Notice to Accelerate foreclosure'.

The dogs are whining at me for no reason I can figure out and I just want to lay here and die, to get a break from everything.

I can't even THINK, everything keeps circling around my head until I want to scream until my throat bleeds.

And then the anger comes, how could she leave me to deal with all of this utterly alone?! How come she got to escape when I have to live every day in this hell?

I want to take her cardboard box (I haven't gotten her an urn yet) and shake it until she scatters all over the floor and then stomp on the pieces.

It hurts so bad.

All hail the inmate search:

http://www.dcso.com/inmates_in_custody_details2.asp?inmateNO=1004439&inmate=M