Bad Night...

[saitaina]

I'm not doing well tonight, the grief is consuming me, not only for mum but for my damn car (turns out my roomate did in fact, utterly total it..part of the front is entirely missing, a door won't open and it wouldn't turn over if I paid it), my water keeps trying to get shut off and I just got a 'Notice to Accelerate foreclosure'.

The dogs are whining at me for no reason I can figure out and I just want to lay here and die, to get a break from everything.

I can't even THINK, everything keeps circling around my head until I want to scream until my throat bleeds.

And then the anger comes, how could she leave me to deal with all of this utterly alone?! How come she got to escape when I have to live every day in this hell?

I want to take her cardboard box (I haven't gotten her an urn yet) and shake it until she scatters all over the floor and then stomp on the pieces.

It hurts so bad.

Comments

[eternalwytch.livejournal.com]

HUGS I know it's scary sweetie...but you need to look after yourself now, look for an apartment or see if you can get another roomie and keep the house somehow.