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saitainaYay on finally getting Josh's rent check cashed ($175 instead of $150, so yay!), but....boo on my dogs running away and not returning home (well, I don't care as much about the Puppy beyond a just random hope he's okay, but damnit I want Hunter back).
It's like I get one step forward and five dozen backwards. For instance, I now have money to pay the car insurence, but it's going to take a month for them to decide my claim (with not even a rental until then) and my third oldest cat is having trouble breathing (he seems to have a upper respitory infection so I'm keeping an eye on him, so far he's stable and doesn't need a vet, but I worry).
I worked on the garage as mentioned before...and ended up fucking up my back (remember, I have back problems, but as I'm alone now, I have to do the work myself, so now suffer burning upper back pain and sharp lower back pain).
It's frustrating as hell and I just want SOMETHING accomplished without a set back...but when in my course of writing this journal has that ever happened? *grins*
I'm going to try to get back into writing soon, I had a plot idea for my offshot of the Dance series (the cut scenes thing I was doing), but I'm not sure weither to write it or not as it deals with suicide, but I wanted to write it before all this, as it highlighted the depth of Kaito's depression when Kiden left....eh, might write another chapter for x story that is not under my name so I won't name it.
It's odd, usually when I'm depressed, I write poetry, the last 'session' got me ten different poems, and right now...I got nothing. I fear that a couple months from now this is all going to hit me harder and that scares me to think I'll be worse off.
It's like I get one step forward and five dozen backwards. For instance, I now have money to pay the car insurence, but it's going to take a month for them to decide my claim (with not even a rental until then) and my third oldest cat is having trouble breathing (he seems to have a upper respitory infection so I'm keeping an eye on him, so far he's stable and doesn't need a vet, but I worry).
I worked on the garage as mentioned before...and ended up fucking up my back (remember, I have back problems, but as I'm alone now, I have to do the work myself, so now suffer burning upper back pain and sharp lower back pain).
It's frustrating as hell and I just want SOMETHING accomplished without a set back...but when in my course of writing this journal has that ever happened? *grins*
I'm going to try to get back into writing soon, I had a plot idea for my offshot of the Dance series (the cut scenes thing I was doing), but I'm not sure weither to write it or not as it deals with suicide, but I wanted to write it before all this, as it highlighted the depth of Kaito's depression when Kiden left....eh, might write another chapter for x story that is not under my name so I won't name it.
It's odd, usually when I'm depressed, I write poetry, the last 'session' got me ten different poems, and right now...I got nothing. I fear that a couple months from now this is all going to hit me harder and that scares me to think I'll be worse off.
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Date: 2010-09-22 12:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-09-22 12:37 pm (UTC)Either way, I can't pay the car insurance now.