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I can never be her, she was something…some level I could never touch.
A goddess, amongs mere mortals.
I’m not a gothic beauty, I’m not an incredible artist, I’m not the be all and end all of catches.
I’m just…me.
I’m not even sure I would WANT to be her. For if I were her, I would not be me. And I would have hurt someone beautiful, precious and wonderful.
I just wish he’d see me.
But how can I ask him to let go of the opast, when I can’t? How can I ask him to look at me, to notice me, to care for me, when I’m not sure I’m worthy of it?
For as she was a human goddess, he is certainly a human god.
So, maybe I should stay in the shadows, simply watching and enjoying the light.
Because I’m not sure if I have the power to shine, and I’m afraid of being eclipsed by the past.
And no matter what, I will always be here, a shoulder, a hand, an arm, and any other part he may need of me. To lean on, to hold, to simply be there.
I can happily love as a friend, if it is my only way to love at all.
Though, he must forgive me if I tresspass in my lonely thoughts and dreams.
After all, I’m just me…and I’m simply human.