Hurt

All right, I try not to post too much here about the goings on in HPfGU due to the fact that very few people care besides those directly involved. But I feel the need to say something now.

For those of you whom know what's going on, I won't bore you with details, for those of you who don't...well, I still won't bore you. Suffice it to say that HPfGU is working out a new governing structure and we've recently lost several good admins and close friends of myself.

At the time when this event occurred I contacted my closest mod buddy, John and did the whole 'I still love you and want to be your friend bit". Promises were made to keep in touch. I believed these words.

But it's been a few months and I have heard nothing from him, not even a quick e-mail to say hi. Recently an event occurred requiring us to contact the former mods in apology. Tonight we received back a harsh letter that stated he does not wish to be contacted by any arm of of HPfGU. And while I understand that wholly and completely...

It makes me wonder am I still a friend, or am I one of the faceless admin of MEG that he wishes to cut all ties to entirely.

And that goes for the rest of those who left. Granted I wasn't as close to them as I was John (and even we weren't' that close, but still). I still care, and I'm still here, left in the dust of what used to be our governance structure. Yes I'm still and MEG but I'm still me, Saitaina, the same person I was before I became and elf and when I served with them. I had no true roll in the 'rebellion'. I never called for heads to roll. And now while I'm left behind, struggling to help pick up the pieces, I can't help but feel a little hurt, that I may have lost some of the best people I knew, over one of the stupidest fights I've seen.

Hurt

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

All right, I try not to post too much here about the goings on in HPfGU due to the fact that very few people care besides those directly involved. But I feel the need to say something now.

For those of you whom know what’s going on, I won’t bore you with details, for those of you who don’t…well, I still won’t bore you. Suffice it to say that HPfGU is working out a new governing structure and we’ve recently lost several good admins and close friends of myself.

At the time when this event occurred I contacted my closest mod buddy, John and did the whole ‘I still love you and want to be your friend bit”. Promises were made to keep in touch. I believed these words.

But it’s been a few months and I have heard nothing from him, not even a quick e-mail to say hi. Recently an event occurred requiring us to contact the former mods in apology. Tonight we received back a harsh letter that stated he does not wish to be contacted by any arm of of HPfGU. And while I understand that wholly and completely…

It makes me wonder am I still a friend, or am I one of the faceless admin of MEG that he wishes to cut all ties to entirely.

And that goes for the rest of those who left. Granted I wasn’t as close to them as I was John (and even we weren’t’ that close, but still). I still care, and I’m still here, left in the dust of what used to be our governance structure. Yes I’m still and MEG but I’m still me, Saitaina, the same person I was before I became and elf and when I served with them. I had no true roll in the ‘rebellion’. I never called for heads to roll. And now while I’m left behind, struggling to help pick up the pieces, I can’t help but feel a little hurt, that I may have lost some of the best people I knew, over one of the stupidest fights I’ve seen.