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saitainaAll right, I try not to post too much here about the goings on in HPfGU due to the fact that very few people care besides those directly involved. But I feel the need to say something now.
For those of you whom know what's going on, I won't bore you with details, for those of you who don't...well, I still won't bore you. Suffice it to say that HPfGU is working out a new governing structure and we've recently lost several good admins and close friends of myself.
At the time when this event occurred I contacted my closest mod buddy, John and did the whole 'I still love you and want to be your friend bit". Promises were made to keep in touch. I believed these words.
But it's been a few months and I have heard nothing from him, not even a quick e-mail to say hi. Recently an event occurred requiring us to contact the former mods in apology. Tonight we received back a harsh letter that stated he does not wish to be contacted by any arm of of HPfGU. And while I understand that wholly and completely...
It makes me wonder am I still a friend, or am I one of the faceless admin of MEG that he wishes to cut all ties to entirely.
And that goes for the rest of those who left. Granted I wasn't as close to them as I was John (and even we weren't' that close, but still). I still care, and I'm still here, left in the dust of what used to be our governance structure. Yes I'm still and MEG but I'm still me, Saitaina, the same person I was before I became and elf and when I served with them. I had no true roll in the 'rebellion'. I never called for heads to roll. And now while I'm left behind, struggling to help pick up the pieces, I can't help but feel a little hurt, that I may have lost some of the best people I knew, over one of the stupidest fights I've seen.
For those of you whom know what's going on, I won't bore you with details, for those of you who don't...well, I still won't bore you. Suffice it to say that HPfGU is working out a new governing structure and we've recently lost several good admins and close friends of myself.
At the time when this event occurred I contacted my closest mod buddy, John and did the whole 'I still love you and want to be your friend bit". Promises were made to keep in touch. I believed these words.
But it's been a few months and I have heard nothing from him, not even a quick e-mail to say hi. Recently an event occurred requiring us to contact the former mods in apology. Tonight we received back a harsh letter that stated he does not wish to be contacted by any arm of of HPfGU. And while I understand that wholly and completely...
It makes me wonder am I still a friend, or am I one of the faceless admin of MEG that he wishes to cut all ties to entirely.
And that goes for the rest of those who left. Granted I wasn't as close to them as I was John (and even we weren't' that close, but still). I still care, and I'm still here, left in the dust of what used to be our governance structure. Yes I'm still and MEG but I'm still me, Saitaina, the same person I was before I became and elf and when I served with them. I had no true roll in the 'rebellion'. I never called for heads to roll. And now while I'm left behind, struggling to help pick up the pieces, I can't help but feel a little hurt, that I may have lost some of the best people I knew, over one of the stupidest fights I've seen.
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Date: 2003-08-26 03:00 am (UTC)It makes me wonder am I still a friend, or am I one of the faceless admin of MEG that he wishes to cut all ties to entirely.
You know, this is what occurred to me too when I read that reply this morning UK time. Will try to catch you later on YM
utterly mine.
Date: 2003-08-26 06:30 am (UTC)Ias I said in my resignation notice last month, I really did quit because I was way too busy to keep up and spend the time that the group needed; with simon mostly afk, I had to focus on fa.
And this time crunch also means that I'm pretty much only keeping up with people on livejournal, and to be honest, you haven't really posted much. I saw your post over the weekend and thought hey, I need to reply to Saity, and then I ran oit of time to go back and do so yesterday and I'm sorry.
I'm sorry you're still suffering there, I really am. And I'm sure the temptation to toss it to the wolves occasionally comes up for you and the sane people who are still there, and I wish you all the best. But to those who've torn this to pieces because of their own malice, paranoia and anger, I just want them to have the same misery they've spread to everyone else.
Re: utterly mine.
Date: 2003-08-26 07:03 pm (UTC)no hard feelings here
Date: 2003-08-26 08:30 am (UTC)I realize that I sent a rather harsh note back, too, but it certainly wasn't directed at any particular person there. I wasn't really close with hardly anyone left on MEG by the time I was able to walk out the door, but that doesn't mean I bear ill will toward those individuals who never did any harm. I just... don't really have anything to say to anyone.
I realize you're primarily talking about John, but I just wanted to say that I don't really think of you or the remaining MEGs as a faceless conglomerate. In fact, as I said in my response, I feel sorry for those of you who feel you have to pick up the pieces. I'm still not convinced they're worth picking up.
So, no, you're not faceless. Not loathed or despised. I just don't consider myself part of that culture anymore, and as such, I haven't really had any call to interact with most of the remaining MEGs. Thus, for me, anyway, being "contacted" by MEG and sent messages on behalf of your governance is pointless. I don't care whether I'm readmitted or not. I don't care whether I ever hear from "HPFGU" again - but that doesn't mean I would send back notes from individual MEG's unopened or block your addresses. I can't speak for John, but that's rather how I felt about it all. Just a big, giant, "What-evarrr" to the whole proceedings.
Gwen
Re: no hard feelings here
Date: 2003-08-26 07:04 pm (UTC)