saitaina | (no subject)

All right, this is something I've wanted to do for a while but was too...shy if you will to do it. But since this journal has always been for my internal thoughts I finally decided to do it. Below are my TRUE feelings about the people listed below. Read it, don't read it, don't care. This is a way of getting off my chest everything.

John-You know I love you man. You're the kind of guy that would be perfect for me...if you weren't gay. I wish, greatly, that I knew where I stood with you because sometimes it seems like you just put up with me because you have to.

Sheryll-My buddy. I was talking with someone the other day and I found it amazing how much our online lives crossover. You're my beta, my elf buddy and my friend. You're there for me when I need you and I'm sooooooo thankful for that.

Heidi-What can I say about you besides that you're one of those that I admire and love. An associate I wish was a friend but that had to go both ways and I also don't know where you stand.

Robyn-MY GODDESS! My best friend and companion in life. Were it not for Rafe and Jedi we would not know each other but I'm glad that two years ago she invited me to become what is now 'shippers'. I cannot picture my life without you right now and I don't want to.

Cassie-There is nothing I can say here that doesn't sound absolutely fan girly. I love your works, I love you. From Sunday chats where we both actually showed up to pursuing your lj while giggling. I will always be a fan.

Mary- What do you say to someone who has spent five years as your twin? My fairy queen I bow down to you. I know we've drifted apart but remember I'm only an e-mail and IM away. Hopefully Kimmy will come back to us.

Argy-My little brother. No more, no less then that. You're the one that's always on YM when I need someone. The one who drags me into armchair every Sunday I'm on and reminds me that friends are more then just a happy face at the other end of the line.

Alex- Once friends, now distant associates. I tried...now I guess I'll back away. See you at the next review of Snitch.

Trace-Rafey loves you too dear. My fiction companion. Where there enough French Vampires in the world I would send you a few.

The MEG- I couldn't not write to each of you so you're one multi headed lump. :) You guys accepted me when I asked, and still accept me as the loonatic I am. Friends and associates and companions forever. No matter what happens to HPfGU or ourselves you have touched my life just as I have hopefully touched yours and shown me that I am better then what some say I am. It has been and will always be an honor to have served sirs.

HPfGU- We are over five thousand strong now. And I'm amazed at everyone of you. The thought that goes into the posts have sometimes left me speechless. I never dreamed being a member of a fandom could be so fulfilling until I joined and I never will forget it.

FA- What can I say to the mods and members of a site that welcomed me with open arms and allowed me to pair Voldie up with whomever occurred to me? My reviewers have always been the best an author can ask for (especially those who don't read slash yet still read my works). The conversations at the Park...the reviews...the owls from strangers wishing me a happy birthday...no where else can I find this.

Ementors- God we're a strange bunch! *laughs* What possessed us to welcome 20+ newbies a shift I don't know but we are a force to be reckoned with. Combined we rival the mods in our knowledge of FA and that scares me enough. As 2003 dawns I look forward to another year of owls and emails and the coming of hordes at the release of OoP

So there it is, my overly flowery true feelings. None bad. :)