Am I...

[saitaina]

the only one who upon day dreaming of their crush things about the way things COULD be? Like dates...sex...and maybe, somedays, marrage and kids and just...life.

I feel like some love sick teenage day dreaming about the hot quarterback.

But I can't stop it. I'll just be sitting here doodling and suddenly realize I'm doodling his name and have been spending the past five minutes in mental fantasy land.

I guess it's okay to fantasize...I mean, it makes me smile. But it's also embaressing. Like it's wrong to do considering we're just friends.

*sigh*

But he IS fun to fantasize about.

Also, when does a crush, stop being a crush. Is there a magick moment when it becomes something more? Or is it a crush forever until feelings are returned?

Comments

[justblieve.livejournal.com]

I'm like that with Richard.

[sanitiesend.livejournal.com]

i do that, too. i think mine's worse, though, because not only does she know i do it, but i know that it's -wrong- to do it. cause although it looks great on paper, so to speak, it would not be good in reality. would screw up the dynamic of our friendship.

but hey... if it makes you smile, just go for it. smiling is freaking awesome. anything that makes you smile that's not, like, deadly or damaging to your body, bust it out, hang on to it, do whatever it takes. that's one of the many prolems with the world today - people have forgotten how to smile.

as for the deep crush question, i'm not sure. it could go either way, and that whole area is as murky as a freaking swamp. i say don't worry about it. the heart will know when the crush has evolved or whatnot. trust the gut. =)