*raises eyebrow*

[saitaina]

I was on the phone with Sheryll the other day (which by the way darling, I am SOOO sorry, my phone sucks and died on us.*glares at phone*) and I realized...this fandom is out of it's bloody tree.

Honestly!

I am so glad that I am so far down the totem pole that none of this effects me and I can continue living in the land of I Don't Give a Fuck. I heard stories about my friends that just left me gaping. I never knew there were so many sides to you people. I still love you all but still. Hillarious actually.

I think I've got the final tally in for who I still have as friends after The Revolution (proper name Sheryll, *pth*) and the rest and to those who I've lost, all I gotta say is "Tough Luck" (wasn't actually what I wanted to say but...). I'm tired of waiting around for people to get their heads out of their arse and realize that ythey lost something cool. I grieved, I moved on, I'm back to work writing, moding and kicking ass.

This goes for outside the fandom as well. I can't belive I've been such an idiot and bitch to one of my friends. I confess it. I was a complete arse to her and I'm hoping she can forgive me for being a deluded fool. It took a hard fall to realize that I had the best friendship I could hope for right in front of me and I threw it away for a loser who so wasn't worth my time. Added to that I've blown off another friend whom I just recently got re-aquainted with and realized she's still cool...even if we argue over everything.

So yeah, times change, you adjust, you realize you've been a complete jack ass to some and used by others. I'm going to take a moment to hug my old friends, my new friends and the friends that I treated like shit (both of whom are probably reading this, knowing them). Love you all and the rest can go suck on a pumpkin.

Comments

[pinguthegreek.livejournal.com]

Are you telling me that shit it still going on ?

[saitaina]

Off and on. You know how it is in our world, one thing dies down, another pops up.

[pinguthegreek.livejournal.com]

I have no idea what is happening. Boy is ignorance bliss.....

[sheryll.livejournal.com]

Yeah, am familiar with the dying of phones. Remember, my cordless died earlier in the conversation and I had to grab the other phone? :)

It's sometimes amazes me how the view we get of some people online is so very accurate about how they are in RL and how some others are so different from how they seem online.

I can think of a few people I thought were friends before who I was very off base about. I've very glad that some I thought I might have alienated are still friends.

We all have our jackass moments. Fortunately, most people realise that and are willing to forgive us for the occasional moments of stupidity. :)

[saitaina]

Phone's suck. There is no other term for it.

I'm just in awe of some of these people. I thought I was the under handed Slytherin bitch but I have to take my hat off.

I seem to have more then my share of jackass moments. It's that whole part of being emotionally immuture and impulsive. I don't think. I know I need to think...I just don't do it. But I'm growing up, I wouldnt' have realized I fucked up before, now I do and am working to make it better.

[sheryll.livejournal.com]

I, too, have the occasional Slytherin moment. Not necessarily something I'm proud of, but it's happened.

The simple fact that you realise you made a mistake and are wanting to fix it puts you head and shoulders above a lot of people who are much older and supposedly wiser.

[sanitiesend.livejournal.com]

are pumpkins tasty? O_o

[saitaina]

If you like the taste of pumpkins...

You need to go ready my drabble by the way, it's all dark like you like. :o)

hello again

[neighsayer.livejournal.com]

As far as the friends thing is concerned, I don't feel I know you well enough to comment. Where the surgery is concerned, I have a bit of experience. I've lived with a shunt tube in my head for the past 22 years. Last December, I had to have it revised. I was scared shitless, but the doctor assured me that everything would be fine. (I didn't believe him for a second.) When I woke up in Recovery six hours later, I thought I'd gone to hell. (Just joking, that part didn't come until some bitch nurse pushed a syringe full of morphine, and my arm starting feeling as though it was on fire.) OK, I know this isn't doing much to make you feel better, but you will be fine, I promise. And if you need someone to bitch to about how much recovery sucks, I am here.

Kate