Pain…lots and lots of pain

[saitaina]

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

Hmm, lots of shit going on around here all of a sudden…which is probably why I’m suffering exaustion at the moment (emotional and physical…which means nothing is getting accomplished).

Mum and I were talking the other day, and she was whining that her Uriologst wasn’t going to tell her anything until January, when all the testing was done, during which, she still had to endure pain and bleeding. I countered with the fact that if anything was seriously wrong, her doctor would get a hold of her before that. She, of course, didn’t believe me.

…until the next morning when the doctor called at the ass crack of dawn to schedule imediate surgery for a cyst on her kidney found during her CAT Scan. *smacks forehead* I do actually know what I’m talking about!

So mum’s on bed rest…which was fun for me, as I have to take care of her. I don’t like playing fetch *pouts* Also throws off me sleeping as she’s up longer then I usually am. I think she discovered how stressed out I am between worring about her and taking care of her, when I burst into tears one day when she asked for dinner (no, I don’t know why I did that, I just did).

Tonight, she leaves for a week in Eugene, to go to her back dr appointment, and have her kidney surgery. It’ll be nice, to get some time to decompress, before starting the stress cycle all over again.

My grandmother is a complete bitch (not that this is news to longtime visitors *grins*). For the past two weeks (er, the past two before last weekend), Mum and I literally destroyed ourselves getting that stupid yard sale going. Our shoulders are STILL hurting from moving shit around. The only reason we did this to ourselves, was Grandmere swore up/down/sidwaise that we would get half of the total take of the sale.

…which was around 600$, quite a nice chunk of change for two people who had an outstanding electric bill and an upcoming holiday to save for.

So the sale’s going great, and Grandmere comes down on the second day to see how things are going…and promptly takes 400$ (what we had at the time) and leaves. Mum asks here later about spltting the money and magically…Grandmere has no idea what mum’s talking about and requests the rest of the money from Day Two.

as;oivjoefoejvj! Bitch!

And then she has the kindness to loan us the money for the electrical bill. Anyone wonder why I hate her? Seriously?

…my fingers hurt, stupid arthritis.

As for the previous post…mum and I talked about it later that night and came to an understanding, though things have only improved slightly. Though mum now understands why I constantly complain of being in pain after she had to spend two days in pain. I told her to try imagining spending weeks or months at a time in that same bed and then imagine the pain and she’d come close to where I am. She said she couldn’t imagine it and can’t understand how I can deal with it day in and day out. I reminded her that if it’s all you know, you learn to deal. *shrugs*

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Comments

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

Oh man, that garage sale thing would piss me the hell off. But daaaaaaaayum, you guys must have had a lot of shit to make all that money! I'm too lazy to have garage sales, I just donate my crap when those charity trucks come calling. Speaking of which, I need to get stuff ready today for tomorrow's pickup.

*huggles*

[herooftwilight.livejournal.com]

Grandmere was sellng a lot of stuff from her house after the move, plus I was selling a lot of collectable items that were simply taking up space.

And it pissed me off enough that unless Grandmere is in the hospital dying, I'm not attending thanksgiving (have to attend Christmas, Grandmere's giving me her antique china cabinet).

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

She's on hospice anyway, isn't she? Just lingering on?

My grandma's 99, and has supposedly been "on the verge of death" for a year. Poor thing, she can't do anything herself and her mind is gone now... it will be a blessing when she dies.

[herooftwilight.livejournal.com]

Nope, was dying, is now not. Well, she is but not anytime soon thanks to her dialysis. She's still in kidney failure, but managing it.

[lumy12.livejournal.com]

If you get bored, you should listen to this:

http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b00mlw59

Ian McDiarmid (Palpatine!) narrates. I love his voice. This one is slashy and fun!

(yes I'll get around to tagging at some point too :D)

ETA: oops, if that link doesn't work, try this one:
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b00m73yk/episodes/player