saitaina | Meds are needed to function

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

I need to remember that subject lest I end up having another week like I did this week. Apparently my anti-depressants are working pretty well, considering I forgot to take them for the past week and ended up severely depressed. You would not BELIEVE the crap that was going through my mind this week.

It doesn’t help, mum and I have been fighting non stop this week over money and housework. I hate housework. I hate the idea that I am somehow responsible for cleaning up someone else’s mess (I will confess I’m not being too sharp on cleaning up my own messes either, but at least they’re mine). I so no need for me to clean up the living room she trashed.

And it seems the dreams of me returning to my own apartment some how mean to mum I want to move. No idea where she got that idea, I mean yes, there are functions of my own place I miss, such as peace, no one questioning the odd things I do, the fact I can clean (or not clean) when I want, but there was a reason I moved back home, the first being I don’t have the money to live in an apartment. I DON’T want to return to the days where I had a choice between toilet paper or a pizza. Not to mention, living entirely alone with just a fish gets lonely after a while, when you don’t have friends.

Though I still wish I had more peace and space.

I know she’s stressed because of money problems (she STILL won’t allow me to go through her budget and slash bills so that she can afford shit), and the house being put back together after construction. Not to mention the city being bastards and saying our wood for the rest of our construction needs to be moved (geeze, we put it in the front yard because we thought it made great decoration! Not because it’s 300+ pounds of wood WE CAN’T MOVE!) and the fact that every time we make a leap in cleaning, we have nine cats (and a dog) that go behind us and destroy something…

But she doesn’t need to take it out on me! *grumpy face*

On a random note, I made a new ‘general’ icon for the communities I’m a member of. I’m so SICK of being called a troll just because I disagree with someone at bad_service or customers_suck. Not one of my best but if you like it, feel free to take it: