One bit down

[saitaina]

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

The test results on le lump de foot came back from the lab.

It was NON cancerous. Yay! One relif off my mind I guess. The foot is still numb in spots, and has a tendency to pull when I wal, causing a shap pain or weird spasm. I’m still using the cane, and am unsure how long I will be forced to use it.

If the numbness is perminent (a possiblity) I might have to use the cane for quie a while, until I adjust, since I have the sensation of dead weight on the riht side of my foot. It’s like half my foot is missing.

Kinda sucks too, because I was going to get back into dancing (used to do it ages ago) for some fun and if I can barley walk, I’ll be no use as a dancer, even for a fun hobby. Especially since my ankles are weaker now after the surgery (not walking plus using diffrent methods of weight bearing left my ankles screwed up even worse then I started).

I’m going to look into a rocker board though, to try to strengthen my ankles back up so that I don’t trip over invisible things because my ankle goes out. Embaressing as all get out to suddenly fall over for no reason.

I guess time will tell for the rest of the healing. What stays, what goes…hopefully this ugly ass scar goes a bit.
I’ve been off all pain medication since the second week of healing, which apparently wasn’t the smartest idea and that could be part of my emotional flat lining. Too much physical pain, combined with stress and my body flipped out and shut down.

Could also be why it seems like I have a festering ball of hell in my stomach.