God damnit!

[saitaina]

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

I was supposed to finalize my name change today…get everything changed over and that after picking up my paperwork.

Well, after about twenty hours awake, five hours before we were supposed to leave, I finally woke up Mum and told here there was a slim to none chance of me being concious at the time. After she yells at me about it, making me feel like CRAP for not being able to control fate and insomnia (I tried to sleep all bloody night, damnit!), I tell her I’ll TRY to be up, but not to count on it.

I go to bed, set my alarm and sleep fitfully, trying to get up on time. Get up a little late but still with a reasonable amount of time before everything closes, call her SEVERAL times on her cellphone, trying to get ahold of her…

Only to find out she’s already left, is at the courthouse and everything is peachy keen, as if she didn’t yell at me this morning…

And she then asks why am I crying?

ARG!

I’m too sleepy for everything to be peachy keen, damnit! Five hours of restless sleep does not make for a happy Saity after she yells at me.