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[saitaina]

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

Worst time to realize you’re more then definetly gay…a week before you’re about to go on a date with a really nice guy whom you only want to be friends with.

I’ve been “bi” for nearly all of my life…or maybe it’s been I’ve been faking it. But as I said, reality comes to all of us. I think it’s hard to keep ignoring the fact I like girls when I can’t think of a naked male (or sex with such) without shuddering, I REALLY like girls, and the only guys I’m attracted to…are very, VERY pretty boys (Orlando Bloom, Tom Felton…these are both seriously pretty boys who have fem features).

Sex with a woman, I can imagine, a future with a woman, I can imagine. With a man..I can’t see it, and I’ve done it. The idea of my upcoming date has me going “Ew, Ew, Ew!”

I’ve so fucked up this stage of my life, haven’t I?