All I wanted...

[saitaina]

was one fucking day to be happy. One day where I didn't feel alone, didn't feel cold, didn't feel empty.

I wanted one day where my mother would actually sit down for two fucking hours and remember she has a daughter, not just a house to clean or bills to pay.  I wanted someone to talk to, something to make me smile...

Instead I get an empty house, one that is so silent my footsteps are starting to echo, a half full bottle of gin with nothing to mix it with, and a handful of cats that stare at me like I'm possessed when I start to cry.

Happy fucking birthday to me...

Comments

[gearcheim.livejournal.com]

Ah, geez, I'm so sorry ;_; I don't even know what to say, that's absolutely horrible... *hugs*

[saitaina]

Thanks. It didn't really get to me until mum just called, canceling our plans to watch a movie...because she needs to clean the living room. *head desk*

Arg! I shall stop crying and go watch anime and read about naked boys! Once I find a tissue...

[ickaimp.livejournal.com]

((Snuggles)) I hope it gets better.

Happy Birthday!!! ^_________^

[saitaina]

Well, mum did spend some time with me, but I was too depressed to enjoy it. Completely my bad there.

Thanks for the birthday wishes, I'm feeling better and more...celebratory today so I'm going to ignore yesterday, eat my cake and have a wine cooler later in celebration (and re-stare at my MK vol.2 I bought myself).