saitaina | Lonely hearts

I've been thinking a lot about relationships with all that's going on. I've been wishing almost daily I was married or had a live in companion to lean against. I just want a hug and there's no one there. It's so...empty. Depressingly empty.

I've been dating Him for seven monthes and have finally discovered the pitfall of a long distance relationship. When I need him most, he's not here. I can't just...touch him, and get that strength from human contact. I can't lean on him when I want to break.

There's no one to hold me when I cry.

I don't think we'll ever get to the point where what I wish and desire will happen. I love and care for him more then any meassure I had ever dreamed possible but there are so many complications. If I had a genie and one wish, beyodn money, beyond beauty, beyond a guarentee of a trouble free life without the drama that I've been doing through lately...

I would wish for us to go beyond where we are now and be together...not forever, though that woul be nice, but for as long as our relationship endures.

So...I would ask, as stupid and childish as it would be, for him to marry me and give me that compainion ship I so desperately crave.

But I dont' have a genie and I just have to...wait, and hope, and mentally shake him until he forgets the complications, loves me and asks!

...I want the damn genie *pouts*