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saitainaI'm watching the Pope's (how weird it is to be refering to Benidict and not John Paul) Inaugural Mass, and watching him...I wonder if he's having that thought...that moment we all have when we've wanted something, worked for it, or even just..had that position of power where we stare at everyone around us, unbeliving, where the only thought in our head is "Oh...my...god. This is really happening."
I can just...SEE him thinking, as he waves to the people. "I'm the Pope...I'm really the Pope. Shiny ring, nice shawl...I'm the Pope...look, I even have the Pope-mobil."
LoL! A CNN commentator just said, "I wonder what's going through Pope Benidict's mind right now."
Great minds and that.
Damn there's a lot of security, but it makes sense, he IS a world leader now. I wonder how you handle that change, going from ordinary man who can run our for a pack of fags...er, ciggerettes, wrong word to use in this context (makes me giggle to much), to someone who has security constantly around you. I know the Presidents and First Ladies at time find it annoying, but also respect it.
I also never knew our Secritary of State had that much security as well from the Diplomatic Services (watched a facinating program on that).
Back to the Mass...
I actually caught myself thinking about researching the Catholic religion...before remembering why I actually hate the formal church and would never be catholic. I think it's that part of me that misses...formality. A sense of unity and belonging.
Everyone who practices a major religion has this. They have a place of worship, a book (scroll, whatever) to read and follow.
I don't really have that. I'm not a subscriber to any true belif, I follow many paths, combining them into my own truth, what feels...right to me. So in a sense, I'm outside every religion. I have no place of worship, no book of comfort...just what I feel in my heart, and occasionally, that moment of true connection.
I somtimes miss going to chuch (yes, I actually used to attend church, in fact, I used to be a Sunday School teacher). I always felt...this incredible emotion when I was there. At times it was small, usually when I was hearding children or running around trying to get everything set up, but there were moments when it was so strong I would fall to my knees and just cry. I remember that, in particular, one time when I knelt at the alter to pray, re-confirming myself to God.
I don't have that now, and it's not a lack of faith, or my leaving the "church", because I know in my heart I made the right choice. But I think it's the loss of everything that building represented, that...connection. It's hard to find that in your bedroom. Perhaps I should find a place outside (the place i now feel most connected to the worlds) to spend some time in, to meditate and just...connect.
I would go back to a church to connect, but their door are locked and I don't wish to attend on a Sunday. I don't want to listen, I just want to feel that peace again. I already know in my heart what is true and what I belive, and it no longer connects to full Christianity.
Maybe it's time I looked back into the other religions of the world, to see if anything stricks true to me. Buddism and Wicca still are the closest to anything, but not...complete.
I just...don't know.
I can just...SEE him thinking, as he waves to the people. "I'm the Pope...I'm really the Pope. Shiny ring, nice shawl...I'm the Pope...look, I even have the Pope-mobil."
LoL! A CNN commentator just said, "I wonder what's going through Pope Benidict's mind right now."
Great minds and that.
Damn there's a lot of security, but it makes sense, he IS a world leader now. I wonder how you handle that change, going from ordinary man who can run our for a pack of fags...er, ciggerettes, wrong word to use in this context (makes me giggle to much), to someone who has security constantly around you. I know the Presidents and First Ladies at time find it annoying, but also respect it.
I also never knew our Secritary of State had that much security as well from the Diplomatic Services (watched a facinating program on that).
Back to the Mass...
I actually caught myself thinking about researching the Catholic religion...before remembering why I actually hate the formal church and would never be catholic. I think it's that part of me that misses...formality. A sense of unity and belonging.
Everyone who practices a major religion has this. They have a place of worship, a book (scroll, whatever) to read and follow.
I don't really have that. I'm not a subscriber to any true belif, I follow many paths, combining them into my own truth, what feels...right to me. So in a sense, I'm outside every religion. I have no place of worship, no book of comfort...just what I feel in my heart, and occasionally, that moment of true connection.
I somtimes miss going to chuch (yes, I actually used to attend church, in fact, I used to be a Sunday School teacher). I always felt...this incredible emotion when I was there. At times it was small, usually when I was hearding children or running around trying to get everything set up, but there were moments when it was so strong I would fall to my knees and just cry. I remember that, in particular, one time when I knelt at the alter to pray, re-confirming myself to God.
I don't have that now, and it's not a lack of faith, or my leaving the "church", because I know in my heart I made the right choice. But I think it's the loss of everything that building represented, that...connection. It's hard to find that in your bedroom. Perhaps I should find a place outside (the place i now feel most connected to the worlds) to spend some time in, to meditate and just...connect.
I would go back to a church to connect, but their door are locked and I don't wish to attend on a Sunday. I don't want to listen, I just want to feel that peace again. I already know in my heart what is true and what I belive, and it no longer connects to full Christianity.
Maybe it's time I looked back into the other religions of the world, to see if anything stricks true to me. Buddism and Wicca still are the closest to anything, but not...complete.
I just...don't know.
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Date: 2005-04-24 03:37 pm (UTC)I'm Pagan and really could care less about what the Church is up to.
Sorry.
Hello...are you there?
Date: 2005-04-25 09:46 pm (UTC)~~*~~
Robyn
Re: Hello...are you there?
Date: 2005-04-26 03:16 am (UTC)Re: Hello...are you there?
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Date: 2005-04-26 10:13 am (UTC)Re: Hello...are you there?
Date: 2005-04-26 06:49 pm (UTC)Re: Hello...are you there?
Date: 2005-04-26 08:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-04-26 12:35 pm (UTC)he sure is a fun god
ra! ra! ra!