Going Home...

[saitaina]

After only almost three weeks in Philly..I've decided it's time to go home. Nearly three monthes early.

I can't stay here, when I'm constantly ready to scream or cry. I miss my mother, my room, my pig-pig, my Sasha...I miss the trees, the roses, the annoying neighbors. Hell I even miss my Grandmere and the Terror Twins and I detest them.

I miss the trees and rivers of Oregon, I miss...everything.

So sometime the second week of July, I will be flying home, to return to my life, and relax. I know I'm making the right decision...just as I know I'm tearing my best friend apart by choosing to leave before her wedding. But I can't stay on here, when I'm missing home so badly I'm becoming physically ill.

I just have to wornder...how bad a person am I, to hurt my friend this way...

Comments

[novalinx.livejournal.com]

oh, hun, I don't think you're a bad person!

It's probably better to leave early then to stay and end up doing or saying something later that you will regret.

Surely your friend can understand that! Have you told her you're not happy?

Maybe you could send some extra flowers or something on the day of her wedding so she knows you're thinking of her?

Just remember, sometimes you have to put yourself first, you can't make everyone happy, but you have to do whats best for you.

Be happy!

[gail-b.livejournal.com]

Er...where in Philly may I ask? I'm in Philly, you know.

[saitaina]

Sorry about not replying sooner, things are hectic around here.

I'm...well I don't really know where the fuck in Philly I am. Non-native and I'm rather bloody lost unles I'm driving throuhg Rocklidge/Fox Chase (their small enough I can figure them out. I know I'm somewhere near Five Corners/Rising Sun and Enola...

[gail-b.livejournal.com]

Hmmmm...well, babe, that doesn't help me a lot 'cause even though I've been living here 3 years I still don't know where a lot of places are (I don't have a car so I really haven't been forced to). Okay, how far would you say you are from the Center City (downtown Philly) area where the Liberty Bell and all that stuff are? If you want to I wouldn't mind hooking up with you in these last few days you are here.

[saitaina]

I'm about half an hour away from that area. Robyn (the friend I'm staying with) said it's cool to meet up at the Liberty Bell (as that's one of the things I want to see) if you want. Luckily, I'm being forced to stay on longer so there's no imediate rush for plans.

[gail-b.livejournal.com]

Half an hour is just about how far I am from Center City.

The best days for me are Mondays and Tuesdays, at just about any time. Let me know what is good for you, okay? Maybe we can get to go to South Street or something.

[haidee.livejournal.com]

your friend will understand. Can you come back for her wedding? I'd do that if I could. Otherwise you are going to wreck everything if you are really unhappy and stay around. Maybe come back a week before the wedding and stay. Can you cope with that. She probably would really like you around. But depressed people make other people depressed. That's not good. If you are happy, then people around you will be happy.

Gawd - I sound like Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm
*facepalms*

[saitaina]

Hey Becca! Sorry, couldn't resist.

Actually, it wasn't possible to come back for her wedding (would have been another 600$ to shell out. But it's all cool as I'm stuck here anyway (see most recent post)