Companioned

[saitaina]

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

It’s two am, mum and I are sitting here, both staring at our laptops, listening to th silence and the music from Seto.

It’s the quietest, most companionable time we’ve shared in a long while.

..I have no idea what these pill are doing to me, but I think they’re changing my personality. Mum agrees (though she thinks it’s for the best, she never did like my bitchier side).

I haven’t snapped at anyone in a week or so…and people keep invading my house, just begging to be screamed at, from our ‘guest’, Becky, to Becky’s friend that keeps staying until one am, to Chrystal, and the inept contractor we have working here who decided NOT to paint one side of our house because ‘I thought that’s what you wanted’ (yeah, like we want one side of hour house lt. blue while the rest is green…and don’t even get me started on him changing plans mid building without consulting us).

…I’m even being nice to Grandmere…WITHOUT being prompted!

Mum keeps giving me funny looks when she sees a wine cooler in my hand (I’ve been indulging the past few nights as it’s been ages since I had any). I try to explain to her it’s rather hard to get drunk off them and I’m not becoming an alcoholic (I had at most, three in one night, that’s not even close to what I drank in Philadelphia with no ill effects). I know she has issues with alcohol (Grandmere, Grandpere Loeffler and Dad are alcoholics) but I’m no where near one, I’m just enjoying a relaxing beverage.

I’m almost finished with Zelda…it’s kind of sad, I waited all these years for the game and now it’s almost finished. Even the side quests are mostly finished. I’m only missing two heart pieces and three poes (but I gave up on those…stupid mini games and Cave of Ordeals). I wonder if they’re going to make another one…and how many years it will take to get it.

I’m thinking of NOT getting the Wii, shocking I know as I collect nearly everything Nintendo related, but honestly, it would be a bit of a waste as there is only one game for it so far that I want. Maybe if they come out with more interesting titles I’ll be interested in it, but right now, I’m just leery of spending that much just to play Zelda with a remote.

The new Magic Kaitou comes out in February…I wish a company would buy the rights for it in the states. I already know what happens, but I want a nice, bound edition I can read, rather then just scans and Japanese novels. I’m making no attempts to learn written Japanese, I’m having enough trouble remember the little French I learned. Guess I’ll have to keep relying on the wonderful scanners and translators out there who make the scans readable…even if I do keep correcting their grammar.

I realized the other day, in the past eight or so years, I’ve written over 157,184 words, in over 70 fanfictions. My original novel is only hovering around 1,000 words. It kind of makes me want to weep. And then figure out how to turn my fan fiction into originals without being sued (not that I will!)

I wrote over 30,000 words for “The End of the Beginning”…that far in and I still have no way to finish it. It’s been so long, I have no idea where I was going or what I was doing. I should just remove it from everywhere and forget I ever worked on it. It would be better then leaving it unfinished for all eternity.

I have no idea what happened, I was in such a dry spell that I couldn’t write a decent sentence and suddenly with the Detective Conan/Magic Kaitou fandom, I’m churning out things left and right, from my “Finis” series to the “Magician’s Waltz” mini novel. I’m also RESEARCHING my stories, looking up actual facts to make the chapters better instead of just pulling things out of my ass and hoping no one calls me on it.

I never even did this much research in SCHOOL.

Whatever happened to being lazy and not having a work ethic?!

*yawns* Guess I’m done rambling for the day. My mind is blank and pleasantly floaty now,