Now I understand why I was feeling dread…

[saitaina]

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

We have until Friday (THIS Friday) to figure out a way to get my mother released on a TVA (no idea what that stands for, I just know it means she can come home with conditions), or else her doctor is signing the papers to have her transfered to the state hospital for the next six monthes and then they return to court.

Her lawyer won’t return her calls, her therapist has abandoned her, I’m working my ass of at her job that I haven’t seen her since last friday (gods I miss my mommy), and her mother went off to California or Idaho without even caring that mum is in the hospital (apparently she knows, mum kept saying she called her).

I can’t go another five + monthes without my mother.  And if she gets sent to state (which is in…Salem? Fuck if I know), I wont’ be able to see her even once a week.

And even the thought of not having to see the therapist if she’s not here isn’t good because right now I’d see Dr. Phil if it was required (and he’s a quack, in my opinion).

ARG!  I just want her HOME…and alive, but first the home.  Because they’re nto doing anything to help her!  They threatened to strip her naked, put her in a straight jacket and leave her in the isolation room until she’s shipped off and send a request that state keeps her the same way.

She’s restricted from group therepy because she ‘upsets’ the other patients due to her anger (umm, she’s locked away from the one person who is standing by her and not judging her, no shit she’s angry!  I’m fucking livid), and they don’t do individual work.

What the fuck more are they going to do to her?!  She’s depressed and suicidal, this shit isn’t helping!  She WAS doing good and then it all went wrong and I’m getting more and more pissed off, more and more frustrated because it’s NOT all her fault and they’re blaming her!

I WANT MY MOMMY AND I WANT HER RIGHT NOW GODDESS DAMNIT!