saitaina | Everything just…STOP!

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

GAHHHHHHHHH!

Not only, have I lost four animals in a week, have to deal with Grandpere in the hospital and being violent, Grandmere bugging the fucking hell out of us, money problems, friend problems, surgery issues, but now my Mere is losing her mind with stress and talking about cutting and suicide (if she cuts, she knows I’ll go away which will cause her to kill herself which will upset me…)

Can the world just stop for one fucking second so I can take a breath?!

*bangs head on desk* I can handle this, I can handle this, I can hand…

Oh fucking hell! GAAAAAHHHHHH!

I hate stress. And I can’t beat up my pillow because it’s not fair to the poor Mr. Pillow. I wish I was an alcholic.

Er, Okay I don’t but still. I need a punching bag or something because this is driving me insane…and that’s not a good place to be considering I’m holding everything and every one together…or trying to at least. Where do the helpers go…to get help?