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My family sucks
Apr. 2nd, 2011 02:17 amThere's something that's been bugging me since my last phone call with my maternal Great Grandmother (this is the one not speaking to the rest of the family because of some stupid fight over a debt she owes Grandmere). Grandma Dee (the great-grandmother in question) asked how Grandmere was. She meant how her relationship was with me (once more because of my mother's lies and half-truths), but I mistakenly thought she actually was asking after Grandmere herself, so I told her honestly, fine, but getting sicker as she is dying. Grandma Dee interupted me, telling me 'she doesn't care about that', in the rudest tone I have ever heard outside myself.
...umm, what?
Okay, yes, I know they have this stupid tiff going on (that Grandmere doesn't even CARE about, the only one who does is Grandma Dee), but did you seriously just say you don't care that your DAUGHTER is DYING.
Dude...seriously?
HOW am I related to these people? Yes, Grandmere's gotten better since Mum died and she's actually TRYING to get to know me, but both of my clos(ish) uncles have pretty much written me off thanks to mum's stories and now I'm caught in the middle of some odd family war between Grandma Dee/Uncle Walter and Grandmere, Uncle Mike and Uncle David...all because I actually have a soul and human decency (shock!) and give a damn about those who share my blood. I don't give a damn who did what to whom or who said what to whom way back when (except for Grandpa David whose a jackass and I one day hope to spit on his grave), so STOP PUTTING ME IN THE MIDDLE, and while you're at it, stop treating me like shit just because my mother told you all these stories that aren't even close to reality (seriously, you people KNOW my mother, she was not right in the head and told different stories to everyone to twist shit up...how is it I'm the only one who knows what the fuck is going on and you people supposedly 'knew her better' then I did).
I still can't get past being disgusted at what Grandma Dee said. Even if you think that way about your own family, let alone your own CHILD, you don't say shit like that out loud. You smile, nod and move the conversation along to something more interesting to you.
There are times I hate the Loeffler/Hill/Burge side of my family with all of my black little heart...and yet, because we are bound by blood, I'm also forced to love them by some force beyond my control. I just wish they would all grow the fuck up.
...umm, what?
Okay, yes, I know they have this stupid tiff going on (that Grandmere doesn't even CARE about, the only one who does is Grandma Dee), but did you seriously just say you don't care that your DAUGHTER is DYING.
Dude...seriously?
HOW am I related to these people? Yes, Grandmere's gotten better since Mum died and she's actually TRYING to get to know me, but both of my clos(ish) uncles have pretty much written me off thanks to mum's stories and now I'm caught in the middle of some odd family war between Grandma Dee/Uncle Walter and Grandmere, Uncle Mike and Uncle David...all because I actually have a soul and human decency (shock!) and give a damn about those who share my blood. I don't give a damn who did what to whom or who said what to whom way back when (except for Grandpa David whose a jackass and I one day hope to spit on his grave), so STOP PUTTING ME IN THE MIDDLE, and while you're at it, stop treating me like shit just because my mother told you all these stories that aren't even close to reality (seriously, you people KNOW my mother, she was not right in the head and told different stories to everyone to twist shit up...how is it I'm the only one who knows what the fuck is going on and you people supposedly 'knew her better' then I did).
I still can't get past being disgusted at what Grandma Dee said. Even if you think that way about your own family, let alone your own CHILD, you don't say shit like that out loud. You smile, nod and move the conversation along to something more interesting to you.
There are times I hate the Loeffler/Hill/Burge side of my family with all of my black little heart...and yet, because we are bound by blood, I'm also forced to love them by some force beyond my control. I just wish they would all grow the fuck up.
