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Shopping for the dead
Sep. 8th, 2010 04:59 am...I keep thinking of things to buy mum. I know it'll take a while to stop, but it's annoying. I'll be at Walmart or the grocery store, or even at amazon.com, and see something that she would have liked and I'll want to buy it, to make her smile.
I won't get that smile anymore.
Nor will I be buying anything like I used to for a while, until I figure out my bills and get caught up (good god! Could my mother EVER pay a freaking bill on time?).
I think I might continue her Winnie the Pooh collection, it was something we both liked and it's a way of keeping her close. I will NOT however, be keeping up her teddy bear collection (in fact, I'm rather eager to get to the point in healing where I can toss some of these ugly ass things).
And that's one thought that has given me fiendish giggles since I realized I had to go through her things, I finally, FINALLY get to get rid of all the ugly ass knicknaks and clothes and ...crap that I've hated for years and years. I think it will be healing...especially when I take a baseball bat to her bear statue/lamp that I've kicked for three years now (it's an attack lamp, it jumps out at you).
I'm keeping her laptop though, as a spare and probably selling her ipod and some of the larger pieces. I'm almost tempted to throw all of her stuff tht I don't want in the living room and have a 'room' sale.
*sigh*
I take her burial outfit to the funeral home today, along with viewing her one last time. ...if I don't post about that later, I will have kidnapped her body. (kidding)
I won't get that smile anymore.
Nor will I be buying anything like I used to for a while, until I figure out my bills and get caught up (good god! Could my mother EVER pay a freaking bill on time?).
I think I might continue her Winnie the Pooh collection, it was something we both liked and it's a way of keeping her close. I will NOT however, be keeping up her teddy bear collection (in fact, I'm rather eager to get to the point in healing where I can toss some of these ugly ass things).
And that's one thought that has given me fiendish giggles since I realized I had to go through her things, I finally, FINALLY get to get rid of all the ugly ass knicknaks and clothes and ...crap that I've hated for years and years. I think it will be healing...especially when I take a baseball bat to her bear statue/lamp that I've kicked for three years now (it's an attack lamp, it jumps out at you).
I'm keeping her laptop though, as a spare and probably selling her ipod and some of the larger pieces. I'm almost tempted to throw all of her stuff tht I don't want in the living room and have a 'room' sale.
*sigh*
I take her burial outfit to the funeral home today, along with viewing her one last time. ...if I don't post about that later, I will have kidnapped her body. (kidding)
