Thoughts From the Edge of Oblivion

Yes I blatently stole the sub from one of my stories, shush, I rather like it.

Well inspections and Christmas have come and gone and still I stare at the edge of oblivion. Depression is a funny thing, one moment you're flying higher then a kite and the next life sends you crashing down into the depths of the ocean.

My grandmother once said I never get a break in life...she was right. One happy moment is always compounded by three of the most horrible of my life. I go on a date and end up in the hopital fighting for my life. I turn 21 and await my trust fund....only to find out it's been twindled away over the years and I have almost no money left. I surface to the top of my budget, adjusting my bills to where I finally have extra money...and in the month of my mother's bithday they take it all away from me.

Sometimes even the warrior has to give up the sheild. This battle against life has raged for twenty one years...shouldn't that be enough? Haven't I given back enough of what was demanded of me? Can't this end now, here, dear gods please, twenty one years of pain is long enough.

I've become jaded, more so then I ever should have been...I can't even remember being an innocent, being free of this. What was it like to be a child? I will never know now. I never was a child. It's easy to pretend sometimes but....

I'm done now. I'm not doing this anymore. The fight's not worth it. So life want's to fuck me around like a pupet on a stick...let it.

I'm just...so tired.

Thoughts From the Edge of Oblivion

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

Yes I blatently stole the sub from one of my stories, shush, I rather like it.

Well inspections and Christmas have come and gone and still I stare at the edge of oblivion. Depression is a funny thing, one moment you’re flying higher then a kite and the next life sends you crashing down into the depths of the ocean.

My grandmother once said I never get a break in life…she was right. One happy moment is always compounded by three of the most horrible of my life. I go on a date and end up in the hopital fighting for my life. I turn 21 and await my trust fund….only to find out it’s been twindled away over the years and I have almost no money left. I surface to the top of my budget, adjusting my bills to where I finally have extra money…and in the month of my mother’s bithday they take it all away from me.

Sometimes even the warrior has to give up the sheild. This battle against life has raged for twenty one years…shouldn’t that be enough? Haven’t I given back enough of what was demanded of me? Can’t this end now, here, dear gods please, twenty one years of pain is long enough.

I’ve become jaded, more so then I ever should have been…I can’t even remember being an innocent, being free of this. What was it like to be a child? I will never know now. I never was a child. It’s easy to pretend sometimes but….

I’m done now. I’m not doing this anymore. The fight’s not worth it. So life want’s to fuck me around like a pupet on a stick…let it.

I’m just…so tired.

Eb and Al's Survey

Well my friend did a survey...and I had to participate so I blatently stole it from Al and here you see it-

Harry Potter

Sexiest: Cannon: Draco Malfoy, Lucius Malfoy, Tom "Lord Voldemort" Riddle. It's all about power. What is more sexy then a man that can kill for you? *watches everyone run away screaming* Come back! I'm not done! Fannon: Seamus Finnigan, Neville, Draco Malfoy (Cassie's AND Al's), my Lucius and Tom. Their just such dolls!

The Knight: Harry. No comment needed here

The One I'd Most Likely End Up With: Crabbe or Goyle. I have a think for big teddy bear guys and these two fit into the role. A little dim but a girl can work with that. Maybe Neville...I mean come on, he's a little sweety. And last but not least, Percy. I may want to slap him upside the head for a while but he's a cutie.

Eb and Al’s Survey

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

Well my friend did a survey…and I had to participate so I blatently stole it from Al and here you see it-

Harry Potter

Sexiest: Cannon: Draco Malfoy, Lucius Malfoy, Tom “Lord Voldemort” Riddle. It’s all about power. What is more sexy then a man that can kill for you? *watches everyone run away screaming* Come back! I’m not done! Fannon: Seamus Finnigan, Neville, Draco Malfoy (Cassie’s AND Al’s), my Lucius and Tom. Their just such dolls!

The Knight: Harry. No comment needed here

The One I’d Most Likely End Up With: Crabbe or Goyle. I have a think for big teddy bear guys and these two fit into the role. A little dim but a girl can work with that. Maybe Neville…I mean come on, he’s a little sweety. And last but not least, Percy. I may want to slap him upside the head for a while but he’s a cutie.

Know all about me! *I'm bored*

1. What time is it? 3.40pm
2. Name as it appears on your birth certificate: Saitaina Angelus. Moricia (*snickers* prove it's not!)
3. Nickname(s): Sait, Saity, Sat (I killed the person who game me this), princess,
4. Parents names: Keneth, Michelle
5. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: 20
6. Date that you regularly blow them out: Jan 18th
7. Pets: 3 home cats (Salem Saberhagen, Strawberry Percivil Shortcake, Sophia Sasha Elizabeth Rajari), 2 outside cats (Texas Maria, Lillian Lilly), 3 lost cats (Mical Liam Draco Salem, Asher Jean-Claude, Renee Rafel James Magick), 3 dogs (Shadow Gregory, Clifford, Solitaire Tiger's Eye)
8. Eye color: Blue
9. Hair color: Blonde
10. Piercing: Three in each ear
11. How much you love your job: I don't work!
12. Favorite color: Black/Purple/Gold/Silver
13. Hometown: Hemet
14. Current residence: Roseburg
15. Favorite food(s): Pizza
16. Been to Africa: Nope
17. Been toilet papering: Nope
18. Loved somebody so much it made you cry: yes, but it was unrequited
19. Been in a car accident: Nope, unless you count nearly putting a drive through window in the public library...but I avoided it....
20. Sprite or 7 UP: Sprite
21. Favorite Movie: 10th Kingdom, The Princess Bride, Annie, HP
22. Favorite holiday: Halloween
24. Favorite word or phrase: Fuck off
25. Favorite toothpaste: Tom's
26. Favorite restaurant: Tequilla's
27. Favorite flowers: Rose
28. Favorite drink: Wild cherry anything
29. Favorite sport to watch: American Football
30. Preferred type of ice cream: Mint and Chip
31. Favorite Sesame Street Character: Cookie Monster
32. Disney or Warner Bros.: Disney though WB does own HP
33. Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: Jack in a Box
34. When was your last hospital visit: 1999
35. What color is your bedroom carpet: Multi
36. How many times did you fail your drivers test: Never passed, it was a computer glitch that gave me my license
37. Who is the last person you got email from before this: Robyn
38. Have you ever been convicted of a crime: Yes
39. Which single store would you choose to max out your credit cards: Tressured Memories
40. What do you do most often when you are bored: Bug people
41. Name the person that you are friends with who lives the farthest: Al/John
42. Most annoying thing people ask me: What have you done today?
43. Bedtime: 3am
44. Who will respond the quickest: Mar
45. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond: Katie
46. Favorite all time TV show(s): Buffy/Angel/Scrapyard Wars
49. Last person you went out to dinner with: Mum
50. Last movie you saw at the theater: HP and the SS
51. Time when you finished this: 3.50

Know all about me! *I’m bored*

Originally published at Memoirs of a Nobody. You can comment here or there.

1. What time is it? 3.40pm
2. Name as it appears on your birth certificate: Saitaina Angelus. Moricia (*snickers* prove it’s not!)
3. Nickname(s): Sait, Saity, Sat (I killed the person who game me this), princess,
4. Parents names: Keneth, Michelle
5. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: 20
6. Date that you regularly blow them out: Jan 18th
7. Pets: 3 home cats (Salem Saberhagen, Strawberry Percivil Shortcake, Sophia Sasha Elizabeth Rajari), 2 outside cats (Texas Maria, Lillian Lilly), 3 lost cats (Mical Liam Draco Salem, Asher Jean-Claude, Renee Rafel James Magick), 3 dogs (Shadow Gregory, Clifford, Solitaire Tiger’s Eye)
8. Eye color: Blue
9. Hair color: Blonde
10. Piercing: Three in each ear
11. How much you love your job: I don’t work!
12. Favorite color: Black/Purple/Gold/Silver
13. Hometown: Hemet
14. Current residence: Roseburg
15. Favorite food(s): Pizza
16. Been to Africa: Nope
17. Been toilet papering: Nope
18. Loved somebody so much it made you cry: yes, but it was unrequited
19. Been in a car accident: Nope, unless you count nearly putting a drive through window in the public library…but I avoided it….
20. Sprite or 7 UP: Sprite
21. Favorite Movie: 10th Kingdom, The Princess Bride, Annie, HP
22. Favorite holiday: Halloween
24. Favorite word or phrase: Fuck off
25. Favorite toothpaste: Tom’s
26. Favorite restaurant: Tequilla’s
27. Favorite flowers: Rose
28. Favorite drink: Wild cherry anything
29. Favorite sport to watch: American Football
30. Preferred type of ice cream: Mint and Chip
31. Favorite Sesame Street Character: Cookie Monster
32. Disney or Warner Bros.: Disney though WB does own HP
33. Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: Jack in a Box
34. When was your last hospital visit: 1999
35. What color is your bedroom carpet: Multi
36. How many times did you fail your drivers test: Never passed, it was a computer glitch that gave me my license
37. Who is the last person you got email from before this: Robyn
38. Have you ever been convicted of a crime: Yes
39. Which single store would you choose to max out your credit cards: Tressured Memories
40. What do you do most often when you are bored: Bug people
41. Name the person that you are friends with who lives the farthest: Al/John
42. Most annoying thing people ask me: What have you done today?
43. Bedtime: 3am
44. Who will respond the quickest: Mar
45. Who is the person you sent this to that is least likely to respond: Katie
46. Favorite all time TV show(s): Buffy/Angel/Scrapyard Wars
49. Last person you went out to dinner with: Mum
50. Last movie you saw at the theater: HP and the SS
51. Time when you finished this: 3.50

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